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7:05 am
April 29, 2009


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p.I.k.k. said:

A.L. said:

Post edited 12:30 am - April 29, 2009 by A.L.


Well Dot, I don't really know.

I think about suicide a lot ever since I got into the 7th grade (late 8th now).

Ever since the beginning of 8th grade I've had 2 suicide attempts. (Sad, I know)

Let's evaluate what I've been doing for a month now…binge drinking during my lunch period (my house is around the corner), showing up to classes piss drunk, cutting my wrists for no apparent reason, smacking my head with my own hand or attempting to knock the wind out of myself, hitting my head against my locker numerous times, dig sharp pencils ends into my thighs when I go to school in shorts…and yeah.

If anyone wants to know how I did my attempts, let it be known.


With the Self-Inflicting pain, it sounds as though you have alot of built up anger. Whether to yourself or some others, the rage inside of you (especially at your young age) is pretty pubescent and natural. We all hit the time when the pimples come, our things down stairs become hard in random sequences, and we have the sudden erge to cause pain. In your case, and alot of others, instead of taking it out on those around you, you find a more calm doing it to yourself. It's pretty much why you see so many minors from ages 12-16 in juvenile correction centers.

As for the suicidal thoughts, we all have them. It's us coming to the realization of our mortality. It selfishness if you ask me. An easy way out of a hard situation. But, whats easy for us, might be hard for others, if you understand what I'm saying. Instead of thinking, “I wish the pain would go away, I wish my life would end”, and becoming self-destructive, you should think, “hard times are only measured by the weakness we potray.” Anyone can make good out of a bad situation. Start living for what you have, instead of what you WANT. The people you HAVE, don't WANT the pain of losing you over selfish s**t. Think of those who care for you, not those who dont.

But, then again, some of us aren't so lucky. Some have mental issues so bad, that the only escape seems to be self destructiveness, and I can relate 100% But, at the end of the day, we are living for us and what we have, not for those around us, and what we want.


Well said sir. Well said. 

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10:59 am
April 29, 2009


Typhoon

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Zanesville, OH

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Agent Ahlex said:

illest wun said:

Agent Ahlex said:

Post edited 12:09 am - April 29, 2009 by Agent Ahlex


I had suicidal/homicidal/rape/molestation type of thoughts all the time after me and Mercedes broke up, a lot of people I'm soft for “going over the deep end” over a relationship but the way I see that is: WHO ARE YOU TO TELL ME TO GET OVER SOME SHIT?? I hate when people say that, I can't tell you how many times I heard, “dude get over it, it's just boobs and pussy” when it wasn't even about that…you can't tell someone how to handle a situation just because youve been through it before, you don't have their DNA, your mind doesn't produce the same thoughts and confront problems the same way as theres…

Wow, got a little off topic…um…yeah, that was the only time I had suicide on my mind, and as for attempting it, I didn't actually try to kill myself, but I cut for awhile…a long while…

PS: I think she really did drive me crazy though, I started stalking her after we broke up, now I stalk girls for sheer pleasure.



hahaha you wish man

Laugh


Dude wtf are you talking about?


I think he assumes you were talking about Mercedes who was posting on here a while ago(idk if she still gets on, but yeah).

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11:04 am
April 29, 2009


Mr. AL

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Yo Typh, Mercedes is Ahlex's girl that f**ked him mover hard..and if you wanna see the girl that did the same to me, go on my friends list and look up Bailey Anne Gordon.

SHE'S the girl that f**ked ME over.

Slap my dick on her cheek and tell her to wake up, smearing cemen on her face like it was her makeup

11:16 am
April 29, 2009


Typhoon

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I didn't know that they were actually in a relationship together. But yeah, I just saw that Bailey chick. Not much to see with that picture.(Only the bottom of her face in it)

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11:37 am
April 29, 2009


Mr. AL

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well let me tell you man..

nuff said.

Slap my dick on her cheek and tell her to wake up, smearing cemen on her face like it was her makeup

12:22 pm
April 29, 2009


SUSPENDED

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i red the topic evolved to b*tches and hoes so chek this out, i wrote it yesterday , its a part of my song about girls in a good way and bad way im gonna record today :


i got a girl and she's so pornographic
with that ass im betting some homo's would mash it
i can't control my d**k,i think im gonna crash it
i dont wanna make terror,i just wanna get pleasure
if the ex-boyfriend talks s**t thats a error
when i get in his sector,only bad will make it better
she used to kiss you true the phone,now i hit you with a stone
that girl is so f**kin fine and i can't leave her alone
im a stalker,if she don't like rap i'll be a rocker
im harder,but thats just till i get what i gotta
she's one of a kind if she doesn't like a balla
but i dont like that kind cuz she dreams to be a mama
f**k that, i dont wanna be a fatha,i wanna be the god of
the motherf**kin golf court and you can be my gardna
f**kin with the wrong b*tch,you can be a gonna (gonner)(gone)
she looks like a forest snake but she's a real anaconda
okay i dont know you but im still gonna warn ya
that lil fresh breeze mood is probably gonna storm ya
haunt ya,witch b*tch, broke b*tch or rich b*tch
better leave this b*tch quick she probably wants your d**k slit

is it dope or just baking soda… its gonna be on the instrumental called : terminated

AGENT AHLEX said : You must’ve not seen any of my past posts or talked to Cobra? lol I’m pretty twisted for a nerd living in the suburbs… ……the first step to recovery is admitting you have a problem

1:27 pm
April 29, 2009


Chevelle James

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just get drunk more AL and take sweet pics lol then find an asian girlSmile and if u find two send one to ohioLaugh cuz theres none here

All composed beats www.chevellejames.com

1:44 pm
April 29, 2009


Typhoon

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Zanesville, OH

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chevellejames said:

just get drunk more AL and take sweet pics lol then find an asian girlSmile and if u find two send one to ohioLaugh cuz theres none here


There's like 1 in my school. lol. Viva Ohio huh?

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1:55 pm
April 29, 2009


KoreanNuke of Eternal Conflict

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A.L. said:

Post edited 11:29 pm - April 28, 2009 by A.L.


How often do you think about it? What causes you to think of doing so? Do you even think of it? Have you attempted? Is it little things that can have a large impact? Big things?


I want to know what you think of this.


AL as you know im REALLY f**ked up

and yea i tried i thought of it and i tried

and why?haha cause the stress,and i really really didnt see a point in life

people doin same thing everyday but yea im good now tho

sometimes think about it


but like Pac said Keep Ya Head Up =]

F.Y.L

1:58 pm
April 29, 2009


KoreanNuke of Eternal Conflict

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Pikks right it can be caused in family but me my dad runnin out and my mom bein f**ked up and step dads and Bro and all that

for me its mostly fam issues but one of the reasons that i TRIED suicied is cause i REALLY didnt know the purpose of life never cut myself


i take my anger out in rappin haha

and workouts of course

F.Y.L